I am healing myself by teaching through writing. As I offer to help others I am healing what keeps me from love.
We all need to be healed. To some degree, we have allowed separation from our source of energy, love. It shows up in regret, hesitation, worry, fear, pessimism, guilt, regret, and most obviously in the way we regard and perceive others’ behavior.
I know what this feels like. It feels awful. One moment a friend is praising you about something you really needed to hear. You feel like a million dollars and hold onto that comment. The next time you meet, your friend is with a mutual friend, and acts in a totally different defensive manner.
You’re upset for giving your friend power to raise you up and let you fall again. You shake your head and feel disappointed that you cannot count on this friend. You say to yourself that you won’t place so much faith in people next time. You really are feeling bad.
Ah, but you don’t want to remain with negative thinking, so you look for a way out. And here is the gold that lies within this type of relationship experience.
One different way of thinking about this experience is to realize that, as uncomfortable as it might sound, the relationship you had with this friend actually mirrors the exact relationship up-to-now you have had with yourself. What?! you say.
Pause for a moment before you read on. Your ego can be defending its territory. It actually likes the struggle over peace. Take a breath and read on.
Can you find similarities with yourself? Does the experience you had with your friend seem identical to the experience you have had with mood swings. One day you are delighted with yourself and all of life around you, another day you seem to be a different person. Instead of being one with all of life around you, you are defensive of everything and everyone around you.
This new perspective can be both exciting and troubling at first. Again, the ego likes contrast situations, and that’s the trouble. The exciting part is that you are getting closer to your core of love. It’s up to you what direction you wish to choose
Your friend probably was not aware of why she was acting one way and then another way, another time. Are there mysterious things going on behind the scenes of our bodies’ awareness? Could your friend be acting in a sphere that mirrors something going on in her life, only see her relationship with herself more clearly? Only you can decide.
Try this out. Look at relationship situations that come up during the day. Look at the ones that particularly bother you. See if you can find similarities to the way you treat yourself . There may be a message in this experience for you. There may be a new insight into how much you waver in the love of yourself. The more you love yourself, the more your relationship experiences with others will change and improve.
Unlock your ability to love. Love food for thought!
